lesleyjl21

I really relate to his music. I’d always heard “Barely Breathing” on the radio, but a coworker/friend of mine turned me on to more of his music about four years ago. I have two cd’s and I want to get his most recent. He inspires creativity within me. I feel alive. He doesn’t make a bad song. The other day I heard an interview with him and honestly, I just sprawled out in my chair and zoned out to his voice. He’s just so great. I’m sorry I missed the last in store performance he did.

Because there is no bad Sting or Police song. And let’s face it, he can grow to be a hundred and he will still be as sexy as ever. Absolutely love him.

I’ve been in love with him for more than five years. I have old magazines with his picture on the cover (Vanity Fair – July 2001, Details – Feb. 2002, among other various photos) and if I have no other celebrity crushes in my lifetime, Josh will always be the one. A magazine photo (I don’t even remember what magazine exactly) is taped up on my wall next to my desk where it has been for years. Never mind I’m not 12. It’s not coming down. I wouldn’t recognize the wall without him.

(addendum – oct 14. 2007)

I don’t know when I fell out of love with Josh exactly. It was not that long ago in terms of years, but long enough ago for me to forget when. I still have the wall photo up, but I don’t look at it like I used to and I don’t feel the same way I used to. I recognize that within myself. It was nothing he did. Just a metamorphosis of sorts occurred. You know when someone else kind of becomes so much better? Someone tangible? Someone real? Someone not famous, daresay? Someone as equally elusive, but someone…just amazing beyond belief for reasons that really can’t be understood at all. Someone who makes you never want to look at another guy again. Even if you wanted to. Someone who makes you feel…young and alive.

I first read about him in a Seventeen magazine article when he must have been about sixteen. Sometime around the “Grandpaw Would” release. I was very impressed because he was so young and making a name for himself with his own style of music. None of this manufactured pop nonsense where somebody casts a good looking guy who can get the teenyboppers to buy his albums. Ben seemed like the real thing and well…real looking. I followed his personal life through the years. I’ve heard radio interviews with him, as well. It took some time before I really started listening to his stuff. Probably the “Breathing Tornados” disc and his most recent “Awake is the New Sleep”. If I got to meet him, I’d tell him that he doesn’t know it, but he and I sort of grew up together in a very roundabout way. Also I would say I think it’s funny he is singing about what is probably Pomona’s “The Glass House” and the wild Santa Ana winds in “Catch My Disease”. (Anyway, who else could make catching his disease sound so enticing?)